happy........ nay

what is happiness, really, i ask of everybody what would make them happy every time i have a chance. sometimes i think happiness is like a drug.... given in small or big doses, when you don't have it you crave it so bad... this weekend was full of happiness, i had my first party @ my apartment. I celebrated with my family and friends and well it was great but then i wake up to my reality, the one that i live everyday...yuck.... well tonight i will seek once again a moment of happiness by reclining in my chair and looking for a good book online while my head ponders on why is everybody always looking for happiness..... why?.....is it the euphoric sensation? or is it that this specific state of mind makes us feel more aware of who we are? or is it that this state of mind makes us be better and do better things. but what kind of better things?.......I wonder and wonder.....